I know. Reno didn't know how bad it was when he left, I had told him it was fine.
[He knows that Reno will make himself feel worse about it than Rude or even Tseng could so he could have some sympathy despite the fact it's resulted in him laying out getting stitches.
But he keeps his eyes on Rude's, tempted to reach up but the last thing he wants is for the other man to be distracted. He winces slightly despite his best efforts as the needle goes in but he's as good as his word, letting Rude do his work.]
I'm sure he'll feel bad regardless but I was thinking about it anyway. I feel burned out.
[It's not something he would admit even to the other Turks, it was just a thought that he kept tucked away most days a he sat through meetings and stared at paperwork.]
I could let Tseng handle the call with Reeve, postpone everything else Thursday and Friday. Spend the day being unproductive, lounging around watching trashy tv.
[He laughs softly as Rude finishes, resisting the urge to reach up to touch the stitches. It was a fun thought but putting things aside even for a day was something he knew that would be difficult.]
No, it's alright. It was just a moment of weakness. Besides, I'm not sure I could convince Tseng to let you have the day off as well.
[He rolls onto his side to look at Rude, reaching over to take his hand once he finishes putting away the first aid supplies. He would have to take a shower later to wash some of the blood away but he doesn't want to get up just yet.]
But maybe I can leave early if you're back by then in the evening. You can show me the best Costan soaps.
I would like that. But we're not staying at my family's summer house there.
[Too many memories he doesn't want to be reminded of. Rufus moves closer to Rude, pressing his lips against the corner of Rude's with the promise of more. Despite the late hour and a head injury, Rufus isn't ready to go to sleep just yet.]
You can show me what it's really like, not just the private beach I remember.
[he's not good with family things, the Shinra family was not exactly a loving and supportive one but he'll trust Rude if he wants to introduce Rufus to them.]
I would love to meet them. And see where you grew up.
That's to be expected. I'm sure they're aren't expecting you to walk in the door with the president of Shinra.
[He knew that even if he was introduced as just Rufus he could never hide who he really was. But he would be just Rufus as much as he could. With Rude, that's all he wanted to be.]
[Rufus smiles against his lips, unable to help himself. He had spent a lifetime telling himself he never needed to be loved- it was something that he would never be able to afford. His father had withheld it so he had closed himself off for so long, removed from feeling anything real.
But whenever Rude said it to him he felt warm, happy. Something he never thought he was capable of.]
I'll try to make the best impression on them that I can. You'll have to tell me how so I don't mess it up.
[Plan it tomorrow? Seemed a bit early. Bu Rude wasn't going to deny it. He was happy to hold Rufus, though, kissing him lightly and then sharing another to kiss Rufus's forehead.]
[All it takes is that gentle show of affection for Rufus to feel as if he's melting into the bed. This was theirs- he only allowed Rude to see him like this, happy and content without holding anything back.]
You're going to have to help me up to change.
[He was capable of it but he needed Rude to be the stronger of them to have the motivation to get up.]
[Rufus normally would have insisted on walking himself, there was no reason he couldn't but there was something about tonight that made him want to stay close to Rude.
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Date: 2021-06-07 06:28 am (UTC)[He knows that Reno will make himself feel worse about it than Rude or even Tseng could so he could have some sympathy despite the fact it's resulted in him laying out getting stitches.
But he keeps his eyes on Rude's, tempted to reach up but the last thing he wants is for the other man to be distracted. He winces slightly despite his best efforts as the needle goes in but he's as good as his word, letting Rude do his work.]
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Date: 2021-06-07 06:42 pm (UTC)[The wince makes Rude wince in return, but he tries his best to focus. STitch after careful stitch. Soon he has the wound mostly closed.]
He'll know in the morning when you have a limp.
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Date: 2021-06-07 07:33 pm (UTC)[This hurt more than he had thought it would but he doesn't tell Rude to stop, instead focusing on Rude's face to distract himself.]
If I can even walk that is. Though I was thinking of perhaps taking the day off.
[Which was normally unheard of, he would never contemplate it but he was slowly learning that the world wouldn't implode if he was away for a day.]
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Date: 2021-06-07 07:38 pm (UTC)[He considers the suggestion and nods along. Yes, that would hide things better.]
You wish to keep out of sight, so he doesn't feel bad.
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Date: 2021-06-07 08:42 pm (UTC)[It's not something he would admit even to the other Turks, it was just a thought that he kept tucked away most days a he sat through meetings and stared at paperwork.]
I could let Tseng handle the call with Reeve, postpone everything else Thursday and Friday. Spend the day being unproductive, lounging around watching trashy tv.
[He laughs softly as Rude finishes, resisting the urge to reach up to touch the stitches. It was a fun thought but putting things aside even for a day was something he knew that would be difficult.]
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Date: 2021-06-07 11:53 pm (UTC)[Because now that the other had said it, he wasn't about to let Rufus get away with not taking the time he needed.]
Ther are some good Costan soaps.
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Date: 2021-06-08 12:31 am (UTC)[He rolls onto his side to look at Rude, reaching over to take his hand once he finishes putting away the first aid supplies. He would have to take a shower later to wash some of the blood away but he doesn't want to get up just yet.]
But maybe I can leave early if you're back by then in the evening. You can show me the best Costan soaps.
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Date: 2021-06-08 01:05 am (UTC)[He bandages over the stitched wound and once things were away he let the other take his hand.]
You think I'm not going to push this issue, dont' you?
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Date: 2021-06-08 01:51 am (UTC)If I'm taking the day off the so are you then. It's only fair.
[It still felt strange letting go but he could try it for a day. Even when he was sick he could never allow himself to rest, it never felt natural.
But there was something liberating at the prospect of being able to put aside being President Shinra for a day.]
We can order from that Costan place that has those fried dumplings I love.
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Date: 2021-06-08 02:31 am (UTC)If it's only fair, then I have no choice but to agree.
[But sharing something of what he was once was a good idea.]
We should go to Costa some day.
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Date: 2021-06-08 02:54 am (UTC)[Too many memories he doesn't want to be reminded of. Rufus moves closer to Rude, pressing his lips against the corner of Rude's with the promise of more. Despite the late hour and a head injury, Rufus isn't ready to go to sleep just yet.]
You can show me what it's really like, not just the private beach I remember.
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Date: 2021-06-08 03:26 am (UTC)I could take you home. To my family. See what it's really like, what Costa should be.
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Date: 2021-06-08 03:48 am (UTC)[he's not good with family things, the Shinra family was not exactly a loving and supportive one but he'll trust Rude if he wants to introduce Rufus to them.]
I would love to meet them. And see where you grew up.
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Date: 2021-06-08 04:00 am (UTC)I would show you. But it could get a bit... tense at times.
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Date: 2021-06-08 04:22 am (UTC)[He knew that even if he was introduced as just Rufus he could never hide who he really was. But he would be just Rufus as much as he could. With Rude, that's all he wanted to be.]
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Date: 2021-06-08 04:36 am (UTC)[Besides, his mother knew he owed his life to the company. She wouldn't hate Rufus for that.]
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:08 am (UTC)But whenever Rude said it to him he felt warm, happy. Something he never thought he was capable of.]
I'll try to make the best impression on them that I can. You'll have to tell me how so I don't mess it up.
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:11 am (UTC)[Because some of it really was a secret he needed to keep until then. It was just... Well, it was habit.]
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:26 am (UTC)[Rufus leans up a little to press a kiss against Rude's lips, wrapping an arm around his waist to pull him just a little bit closer.]
Tonight is ours.
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:28 am (UTC)I'd be happy to hold you all night."
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:40 am (UTC)[He groans softly but smiles, looking up at Rude. He needed to clean off and change but he couldn't find it himself to leave Rude's arms just yet.]
I'll sleep well tonight then.
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:43 am (UTC)I would think so, hurt as you are.
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:52 am (UTC)You're going to have to help me up to change.
[He was capable of it but he needed Rude to be the stronger of them to have the motivation to get up.]
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Date: 2021-06-08 05:05 pm (UTC)[He could absolutely move himself if it was needed. Being a Turk meant doing a lot of things one didn't want when they didn't want to do them."
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Date: 2021-06-08 07:49 pm (UTC)[Rufus normally would have insisted on walking himself, there was no reason he couldn't but there was something about tonight that made him want to stay close to Rude.
Must have been the head wound.]
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